I was sad again the other night and in complete emptiness and I had a vision of Jesus bending down by me to comfort me. I saw his white robe and feet. I think he was holding my hand. Then I heard an angel say, “The Lord is with you and he will not harm you.” This was a man’s voice and it woke me.
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
It just seems the sadness continues and I think… Is it part of my test, or stripping me away from all fleshly desires, or is it bc I need to turn away from some things still and yield fully to him again? Whatever it is, I am struggling. I feel empty inside since my last setback and trust is so hard for me now with anyone. I can’t tell you how many times I have had to give up desires or things I want bc of my love for him and with this comes sadness. I know desires here are temporary and treasures in heaven are forever, but other’s don’t see that. My heart hurts for the world and how lost so many are. I can’t make them understand how real God is and that he see’s all, bc they have not experienced like I have. They don’t hear him speaking like I do. People seem to think God can’t see all and they do these horrible things, but all will be revealed one day. It’s not about being perfect, but it’s about wanting to please him over our desires. It’s very hard to resist temptation or give up temp desires, but if you truly love him, then why not at least try. He promises to be our strength (You Need the Holy Spirit for this) and to give us better in return. He understands if we fail ofc, but I see people not even acknowledging him in things like he doesn’t care or he’s not there. God desires to be in everything you do in life. God always comes to rescue my heart, and he always restores, but this time I think it’s me struggling to allow it. I just see so much bad in the world and I know why God is sad ab it. I can feel his sadness. The message I got above, it really made me feel loved by him and how he watches everything I say and do. It’s his desire for all of us.